#23

never did i expect myself to be in this drama.

it has been a week

people were telling me how lucky he is, even after everything went crazy, both of us didnt blame him, instead we have this sense 0f guilt towards each other.

im sorry for what happened.

i swear to you, if i know your existance right from the start, i will definitely not step into this mess

i know you felt like shit but you must believe me, i dont feel any better, especially after i saw your convo with R.

my heart shattered,

if you think that throughout this whole incident he didnt care, cant be bothered by you or been lying to you , you are really wrong.

even i feel that he really cared for you.

i bet you didnt know im really jealous of you and the things he said to defend you last tuesday,

indirectly throw me down to the rock bottom

i really felt bad that things end up like that, ive tried my very best not to hurt you any further.

i hate myself for having enough courage to clarify things with you right from the start when i saw those photos on fb , i hate myself from dodging away more than once when i saw the both of you . if only im a little more courageous, you probably wont sink in deeper.

im not sure if you ever read this but i really hope you will be able to recover from this soon.

trust me, i can feel the pain he inflicted on you,

but please be strong my dear, please be happy

with all your wonderful friends around, i believe you will be able to do it.

love,

hui jun